ho hum

well today was one of the worst days ever for me.. my dad got his results back from his biopsy.. it aint good he has cancer.. they are doin a petscan tomorrow just to see how far it has gone.. im praying that is just the start of it and they can give him chemo and get rid of it.

i have seen ppl with cancer get healed completly of it.. Why cant my dad? everyone is praying for him.. and the BIBLE says where 2 or 3 are gathered... and then BY his stripes WE are healed..
you know it is one thing when it is a grandparent, cousin, aunt etc... but when it really HITS home... it is bad... we are all basket cases..

i mean my dad never cries... he broke down last night with my brother, he is scared to death.. and worried about my mom.. i mean what could he possibly be thinking? i mean it is like his days are numbered? and im the type i dont care to text or talk on puter about it but on phone or face to face i rather not..

im a hermit, rather be left alone and let me deal with it my way... my dad was and IS a person i hope my son can look up to and admire.. my dad was a hard working, everyday of his life even if he was sick he still worked...
i mean knowing this, how can i possible enjoy christmas? my son's birthday and look over at him knowing this might be the last party or christmas he will be at...i have had faith since day 1 that they found the spot...
and look where it has gotten us.... but i know God doesnt give us nothing we cant handle.. but i wont dad to be able to see wade grow up, and get in trouble, get married...
i dont know if i will be able to handle this.. WHY couldnt God changed it , healed him, and turn him around.. Why does it have to be like this?
WHY WHY WHY?
i wish it was me instead of him, i would give him a lung if we matched... my dad dont deserve this.
i was all excited about christmas but now... it aint phasin me... life without my dad would be like fish without water...
anyway... does life go on?

Today

Well for the last couple of days my left hip and lower back has been hurting well im too the point i had to call mom and ask for a pain killer.... just so i would be able to walk, cause if it dont start raining the KDG class is going to the pumpkin patch!! Wonder how they will do it, i mean we have to leave promptly at 8:10 this morning and it aint rainin now but if it starts in on the way there do we just turn around? they have rescheduled another day just in case it was already raining...
wow i just turned to look outside it is darker now then when i first got in here... in a way i hope it does rain... and then we go on the 28th then maybe my back and hip wont be hurting... anyway enough of poor pitiful shelia..... my mom picked me some more purple ornaments up... my tree should be here this week....!!!
My dad goes to the dr today to find out the results of his CT scan that he took yesterday... well there is all of what is going on today... i better get off here so i can go wake up my lil monster.. i mean angel..... i hear THUNDER!

I Just Aint Very Good

I have come to the conclusion i aint very good at keeping up with a blog.. like you couldnt notice.. but i try.. anyway the latest news in my life..

humm that would be lol, well lets start it off like this

i have always wanted a white christmas tree so

that i could put whatever color i wanted on

it.. now here i just bought a new green one

not to long ago maybe couple years ago

and christmas trees i dont think are cheap

at all, and we dont have money to just go

and buy one ...but i was looking on ebay

and i seen this BRAND NEW SEALED IN

BOX 6.5 FT MARTHA STEWART WHITE

TREE and it was make a offer.. oh my what

do i do... knowing they are expensive since

HER name is on it.. i thought humm ill

be like a smartalic and just put 50.00

the guy wont except it.. OH MY GOSH..

within 30 minutes he wrote back i had

WON it... talk about acting on impulse

my mom laughed and said oh my what now

i said i have to pay for it now..

BUT I GOT MY WHITE TREE!!

i cant wait to get it.. maybe my friend

will help me add pics of it once i get it put

up.. but NEVER ACT ON IMPULSE or

try and be a smartalic it always hits ME in the butt!

but im glad it did this time... :) so do you think

i got a good bargin,?

LONG DAY

well i decided i was going to go to muskogee like around 12:00 so i called my mom and me and her and my son and nephew went my gosh we spend like 4 hours in the mall... IN THE GAME ROOM...and really didnt spend that much in there... then we went to hancocks to try and find some school looking material, like with chalkboards, bus, teachers, abc, etc.. on it... well no luck... so i went to hobby lobby... still no luck... so we came on home.... and b4 we headed home wade ate like a mighty kids meal, b4 we even left he ate a order of fries, got to gore we had to get him 2 crispitos.... and he said he is still hungry... mercy.. good thang i have a money tree growin in the back yard... HA whatever! that is the day in the life of ME!!

Wow what a weekend!

What a weekend, friday we went to disney on ice... it was so good i mean if you liked the movies high school musical... but my gosh a bag of cotton candy with a lil flimsy hat was 12.00 a snow cone in a lighted cup was 15.00.... OUCH...

then this weekend i taught myself to crochet just the " single stitch" but i didnt even know nothing about crocheting.. but i beleive i made it way to long it is about or over half of a couch.. but im excited...

yesterday me and my sister inlaw surprised my mom and had her dinner all cooked for her so she didnt have to do anything.. she liked that..

last night i made 48 cupcakes for kdg class...strawberry ones with sprinkles...

oh we got a parakeet this weekend it is a girl and real pretty light blue.. got any names ?

and right now i should be doing my dishes.anyway.. i better go...

well well... my upcoming events...

well lets see, today is the last day of school, of course till Monday. tonight i have parent/teacher conference at 6:00 which i know he is already doing so good, or so i think so.. might find out different..lol im so proud of him, yesterday the truth be known i guess i was let down a lil bit cause i know he knew his site words forwards and backwards upside down didnt matter then he got up to say them and missed two.. i guess i just expect to much out of him, and push him to hard... but anyway that is what is goin on today

tomorrow me and tena my mom grant and wade and brooke is going to tulsa, which we are dropping brooke off in broken arrow at her moms then we are headed to INCREDIABLE PIZZA.. yeah... ( I love that place) then from there we are going to go see the ICECAPADES.... high school musical on ice.. ihave never been to any disney on ice or nothing... i have heard it is great! cant wait...

Tomorrow Glenn is taking the boys ( they are a pkged deal you take one you take both) to tulsa.. and i am pretty sure he is getting them both a hamster... just what a i need another animal to feed... like a fish, crab, and dog aint enough.... so i guess while they are gone i may dont know yet go up to the fin and feather to there craft show.... i have only been like maybe twice? if that... i dont do "CROWDS"

right now im debating whether or not to buy this hamster cage on ebay.... they are regular like 37 or 38 dollars and this one is brand new for 20.00 well and 10 shipping still cheaper than the other andplus you add tax on that and your gas driving there...

see how exciting my life is.... oh boy.. any way... guess it could be worse...

so whats goin on in your world

Ok+

today has been alot better day then yesterday, i guess since i have had most of the day to myslef
Marcus has been helping my cousin move, Wade is over at G's house..

oh last night i went over his "new" site words and he knew like 3 or 4 of them right off... YEAH!! nothing like seeing his face when he learns a new word.! he just grins soooo big... pretty soon the site words will be long gone and geometry and and trig and calculus and all that will be here.. and its bad to say but he will be on his own.... i never had algebra.... and i know his daddy dont know how to do it....

well not a whole lot to write about to so just enjoy your day, and ill be back again to bore ya'll.