Wow!

i was just grippin to a friend theother day why should i post i have only 1 follower.... and i get up and get on here now and BAM now i have 3.... this is so exciting, even though they are kin folks, they know how my life can be living with this ELLIS..... but anyway, i got to get dressed and get around and go to walmart, have to get stuff for wade's party at school this week.. this will probaly be there last party b4 they move on to first grade...

my days are fixing to get more fast paced, since tball is started they have practice monday and tuesday, i think there first game is around the 16th or something like that, actually i can see improvement in him this yr... they should get there uniforms the later part of this week or first part of next week..... all those kids look forward to getting those and trophies......

OUR TEAM waited till the last minute to try and find sponsers and i was after the coach since like last october to start lookin... and now it is like takin 50 here 50 there.... but we will make it...

well anyway, im goin to get off here and quit borin ya'll to tears... cya

well lets see...

well yesterday i got my haircut, and colored.... woo hoo big step for me.... and then we had tball practice last night, today one of my "good" friends came over to see me, she just cracks me up, i guess the reason is becasue everything she is saying is happening at my house too... and when she tells it her expressions crack me up!!!!!!!! but anyway im glad she came over, one of these days if i can get rid well if he will go to glenn's house and everything me and her need to go somewhere........ i tell ya wouldnt that be a trip..... anyway... that is all that has happened..........

i havent been on in months.

i really dont get on here much, being i only have 1 person that reads this and i usually talk to her, try to everyday, but i think she screens her calls alot....LOL... j.k shawna.... anyway lets see what has been going on since december my last blog...lol.

my dad is finished with chemo, he is CANCER FREE, he still has to take 10 radation ( just for precaution) then he will be competly done with everything... he feels good, he just wish he could get his strength and energy back, but that will take some time...

okay my mom, its been about a month i guess ago, she blacked out and fell and broke both ankles on her one foot and broke bone, she had to have surgery and they put plates and screws in her, and she finally got stitches out the other day but still has 3 weeks to stay off of it..

wade, wow where has this yr gone, they only have what a month and a half of school left, then on to first grade...im sure goin to miss his teacher he has this yr, i guess i will always be partial to her since that was his first one... next yr he will have a good teacher to but in first grade they dont get to do all the fun stuff they did this yr, like feild trips, making cookies in class, having all these parties, milk break, etc..... they start growing up...

He signed up for T-ball again this yr, they have had 2 practices, there team this yr is called the REBELS so last night we took him on a wade's day out, he got him a new helmet, a red one to go with uniforms, got him a bat, new RED cleats, and a RED bat bag... he k nocked a home run the 1st practice, but he is still timid about hitting it so hard running fast, he dont put everything into like he does here, and when he is running it looks like he goes half speed compared to at home...

ME well nothing exciting about me, i am wanting to get my hair cut and colored, i think i want it cut like reba's on her show when her hair was the shortest, this is the longest my hair has been since like 95 oh well, got to get it done, and get the dog her shots, get stuff rounded up for tball to order there uniforms...

marcus.... well whats there to tell.... lol
till later.

Wade's Bday is Today

well today is my baby boys 6th bday... Gosh it only seems like yesterday me and my hubby was trying to decide on the name, poor baby didnt have a first name until they was rolling me down to the OR... he is really growing up so fast

we had him a itty bitty party on the 20th, we didnt invite nobody due to my dad just gettin out of the hospital so we kept it short and sweet... and that is one thing i can give my son, he didnt care a bit that is was so small..

this evening we are going to my moms to open her few presents up then we come home and tomorrow we will open ours then the next day SANTA comes, even though i have threaten my son santa wouldnt be stoppin at our house.... it didnt phase him any...

but a small update on my dad, tomorrow is his last radaition treatments.... then he has 3 more rounds of chemo... he has lost SOOOOOOO Much weight the radaition is really starting to " burn" him but only 1 more of those.... his hair is starting to fall out.... he is getting very emotional but hey we are almost there!!!!! then maybe get his gall bladder out and he will be home free!!!! yeah.....

i think when he gets done with all this and comes out of it with flying colors... he is going to know excatly who brought him thru this.... GOD!

Update

well, they checked my dad into the hospital today, he was ready to, usually he will put a fight up and REFUSE to go, but he was ready, he is really bad dehydrated... so he may just have to stay this one night maybe 2 or knows..he has been getting really really sick with the chemo he throws up quite a bit, and if you could see him he cant afford to be throwing up that much, bless his heart... but please please keep him in your prayers, at home, on the go, at church, pass his name along to family and friends have them be praying... dad needs at least some of his strength back... cause i know eventually he will have it all back... i know you proably dont like hearing all about my dad on these but i write about what i dear the most... well okay most of the time, sometimes it is just to "VENT" but you catch my drift.. thank you once again..

Why Do I Bother?

why do i bother to have one of these blogs? i can't keep up with them. either that or i just have a rather BORING life and have nothing to write about. and that is probaly the right answer.!

well my dad has started his first rounds of chemo, and they are making him very naseau, weak, tired.. the radiation makes him tired but nothing like this chemo.. but he is off till the 22nd...then he goes in for 2nd round... dont you know he is going to be feeling bad for christmas?

bless his heart.. my sons bday is the 23rd, but i guess we will do it on the 20th and give dad the chance to come... my son said i dont wont papa to come all he will do is throw up.. which he dont understand ... but i tried to explain to him that the medcine makes him to it, it aint just pa pa doing it...

but moving on, we took my son and my nephew to look at lights and go see the inflatables, well my hubby, was in one of those "MEN" moods, and it was the most misderable trip ever( now i know why we dont go anywhere) the boys couldnt talk, barely could breathe... and it was so sad here they was all excited looking and they would whisper " awe look at that" "oh wow" now that is pitiful!! is my hubby the only one that ever has these MOODS! he took us to braums, and he stayed in the car cause he needed ALONE TIME! oh my gosh! is this pitiful or what.!

anyway.. you are welcomed to leave comments.. keep my dad in your prayers!

ho hum

well today was one of the worst days ever for me.. my dad got his results back from his biopsy.. it aint good he has cancer.. they are doin a petscan tomorrow just to see how far it has gone.. im praying that is just the start of it and they can give him chemo and get rid of it.

i have seen ppl with cancer get healed completly of it.. Why cant my dad? everyone is praying for him.. and the BIBLE says where 2 or 3 are gathered... and then BY his stripes WE are healed..
you know it is one thing when it is a grandparent, cousin, aunt etc... but when it really HITS home... it is bad... we are all basket cases..

i mean my dad never cries... he broke down last night with my brother, he is scared to death.. and worried about my mom.. i mean what could he possibly be thinking? i mean it is like his days are numbered? and im the type i dont care to text or talk on puter about it but on phone or face to face i rather not..

im a hermit, rather be left alone and let me deal with it my way... my dad was and IS a person i hope my son can look up to and admire.. my dad was a hard working, everyday of his life even if he was sick he still worked...
i mean knowing this, how can i possible enjoy christmas? my son's birthday and look over at him knowing this might be the last party or christmas he will be at...i have had faith since day 1 that they found the spot...
and look where it has gotten us.... but i know God doesnt give us nothing we cant handle.. but i wont dad to be able to see wade grow up, and get in trouble, get married...
i dont know if i will be able to handle this.. WHY couldnt God changed it , healed him, and turn him around.. Why does it have to be like this?
WHY WHY WHY?
i wish it was me instead of him, i would give him a lung if we matched... my dad dont deserve this.
i was all excited about christmas but now... it aint phasin me... life without my dad would be like fish without water...
anyway... does life go on?